If you’ve been a reader of mine since last year, then you’ll probably remember that I published a blog called “Reflecting on 2018: 13 Journal Prompts and My Answers.” It was a pivotal moment for me because that was the very first blog post that I ever created with my friend, photographer, and editor Ray Reyes.
At the time, I was dealing with some major confusion in my life. I knew that more than anything in the world that I wanted to be a blogger, YouTuber, podcaster, writer, and business owner. BUT, I was in the 9-5 grind. I was unhappy and constantly wondering if I should really take the leap and spend the first year of my life out of college creating a foundation for my wildest dreams.
It was a very scary, stressful, and confusing time. But finally having Ray there to talk and to work with is what gave me the courage that I needed to start becoming the person I wanted to be. That was the very first blog post that we shot together. A year later, we’ve now created and published over 40 blog posts together!
I can’t help but reflect on this time last year. Not only was it the start of a wonderful friendship, but the start of a new year, and the start of my adult life after graduation and moving out of my parents’ house. So much has happened between now and then. So I wanted to do another New Years’ reflection post! I originally started writing these journal prompts just for myself, but I thought it would be a nice Lost Online tradition to publish a blog about my 2019 reflections since then.
So here it is! One year later. This is me Reflecting on 2019: 13 Journal Prompts and My Answers!
Make sure to get out a journal and reflect on your answers for this past year too! It’s such a fun tradition that helps you remember all of the growth that happened, set you up for a positive and productive new year, and think about which areas of your life you want to work on.
2019 was the year of…
Transformation. At the start of the year, I said that 2019 will be the year of creativity. I was in a place where all I wanted to do was make blog posts, take photos, and make online content. I also was really immersing myself in spirituality. In my free time, I was immersed in ayurveda, yoga, meditation, etc. But after the first month or two of 2019, my attention shifted. Sure the blogging and content creation was fun, but I wanted to do more. I wanted to create ebooks, and coach people one-on-one, and hold events. Slowly my attention shifted towards that. I decided that I didn’t just want to be a blogger, but a full-blown business owner. I wanted to lay the foundation for myself for a successful career in the health and wellness industry.
But the reason why I say that it ended up being the year of transformation was because so many things fell apart in 2019 and eventually new opportunities started to come together. Everything from my health, my job, my family life, my relationships, and my confidence was turned upside down. Everything seemed to go wrong and I became very, very depressed. I even decided to start seeing a therapist.
BUT, just after things started to fall apart, better things started to come into fruition. I became very business-focused and stopped pigeon-holing myself as just a blogger; I made connections with friends that light me up more than anything in the world; I started to get more motivated and see my mental state change. Everything was turned upside down, but if it wasn’t for all of that happening, I wouldn’t be HERE right now. I wouldn’t be launching my own business in the new year and FINALLY monetizing my passions.
What went well for me?
- I got to work with an amazing photographer every week to take the most beautiful and creative photos for Lost Online Blog.
- I had enough financial freedom to leave my job and pursue my dream.
- I published over 40 blog posts, some of which deeply resonated with people and helped them.
- I hit my first 100 blog subscribers.
- I created a YouTube Channel.
- I had wonderful one-on-one time with my grandma when I went to visit her.
- I started seeing a therapist for the first time in my life who has provided a safe space for me to open up about relationships and past traumas.
- I found an herbalist and DoTerra Wellness Advocate who has supported me through several health concerns.
- I finally got the rhinoplasty surgery I’ve been wanting for years and I finally feel comfortable when I look in a mirror.
- I went on several trips including Zion National Park, Savannah, San Francisco, Cincinnati, and Niagara Falls.
- I found a business coach which DRASTICALLY helped my mentality and productivity.
- I finally started creating newsletters.
- I ended up connecting with women who I love being around and now I’m finally starting to feel like I have support and community.
- We bought the perfect little house for us.
- We got a puppy!
- I got over my fear-based mentality and self-sabotage and am finally launching my business.
- I learned how to better manage my time.
- I published several interviews that I’m proud of.
- I started to build my email list.
- I joined a book club which I’ve been wanting to do for years.
- I started to feel as if I have a community and a tribe of people who are actually interested in the same things as me like wellness, self-help, and self-development.
What did not go well for me?
- My health and digestive problems got worse.
- My dad and I lost our jobs on the same day.
- My family was struggling for months dealing with the job loss and financial worries.
- I became super depressed, more than I have been in years.
- I was in a new city with no friends and felt very alone until November.
- I was isolating myself and staying home all day which made it harder.
- I had tension in my relationship caused by a third party person.
- I struggled with limiting beliefs, self-doubt, and self-sabotage up until very recently.
- I had another massive hair loss which prompted me to need hair restoration.
- I didn’t make as much progress in my business and blog as I hoped because of the depression and isolation.
- I had a falling out with a good friend.
- I didn’t know how to manage my time for the better part of the year.
- I never established a solid morning routine.
- I was being forced into buying a house when I wasn’t ready by a third party person.
- I wasn’t respected in many close relationships which I needed a lot of therapy to get through.
- I had to work at my kitchen counter and our couch up until October which did not help with productivity.
How can I change those things that didn’t go well for me?
After looking back at this past year, I learned that a lot of the issues that I was dealing with were mostly emotional and mental because they revolved around being lonely, isolated, and not having friends. This affected my self-confidence like crazy and I became super depressed because I simply had no one to talk to or connect with about the things that I care about.
This caused so much stress and depression symptoms that made me feel like a loser and a failure up until very recently when I was lucky enough to connect with my business coach and a group of young female entrepreneurs that I became very close with. Since meeting them my world has completely changed because I’m no longer isolated and alone.
I realized that the way I could change these emotional and mental issues I’ve been struggling with is to connect as much as possible by going to events, setting up coffee dates, reaching out to people over Instagram to have a REAL conversation, and joining groups in the community. In the next year, I plan on keeping up that change because it’s such a simple fix that makes me feel like an entirely different person.
What accomplishments did I have?
The biggest accomplishment that I had this past year was that I broke through many of the mental barriers that I had at the start of the year. That happened because I put myself out there and worked on what I care about, but also because I had a sense of community, and help from a business coach and a therapist.
Now, I feel like a changed person. I don’t feel like the “stupid teenager” anymore that I was always told I was when I was growing up. I actually feel confident about myself and my own path in life.
I feel like in the last year all of the ups and downs and all of the work on myself made me grow into the person that I needed to become to make all of my goals and dreams happen.
How did I improve my relationships?
This year I improved my relationships by 1) not forcing the ones that weren’t working out and 2) by connecting with people that were on the same level as me – as in other wellness-centered entrepreneurs. Surrounding myself with the people who were in a similar place as me made me feel understood and supported. And I finally had people to talk to about my interests, not just about drinking like most of the people my age. Also, it helped that I finally stopped forcing the relationships that weren’t working out because we have far different personalities or don’t have anything in common.
Also, now that I’m thinking about it, I realize that getting my own coaches and mentors in different aspects of my life helped me. I finally got professionals and mentors to help with the things that I was struggling with so that I wasn’t trying to force someone close to me to act as my mentor. Previously I would try to have my friends act as my business coach or health coach. I would constantly seek help from people who couldn’t help me with what I was struggling with which strained my relationships.
What do I wish I had taken more time for?
This year I wish I would have taken more time to do my self-help practices like journaling, doing a daily gratitude practice, meditating, and visualizing. Those things are what refuels me and make me feel better. Unfortunately, living with a significant other, coming into adulthood, and focusing on business pulled my attention away from those things.
What lessons did I learn in the last year?
The first lesson that comes to mind is the importance of community. Once I finally had a community of my own I realized how beneficial it is for our mental health and wellbeing. I can’t allow myself to be isolated and without that ever again.
The second lesson that comes to mind is how to manage time. Although I should say how to manage it BETTER because I’m still working on it. With my business coach, I learned how to break down all of the tasks that I want to complete in small weekly steps, so that everything that I want to get done, WILL actually get done. This way I can see progress in my business every single week, instead of my ideas staying stuck in my head and not coming to light. Without learning time management, I would have NEVER seen any progress this year. The blogs, the newsletters, the progress in my ebooks, the IIN homework, and the website changes all got done because I finally learned how to time manage and break things into small steps, not just for my own clients, but for MYSELF!
The third lesson that comes to mind is that I need to stand up for myself and not let people bulldoze me. I’m an adult now and can’t allow random people to control my life. I can’t have people forcing me to buy a house, forcing me to open credit cards, forcing me to be their client, or forcing me to get a dog breed they approve of. In a way, I learned that I’m going to have to be kind of bitchy and assertive with people because some parts of this year have been hell all because I was trying to be polite, nice, and avoid confrontation.
2020 will be the year of …
I’ve decided that 2020 will be the year of fun, financial abundance, and professional growth.
I know that those are three separate things instead of just one word, but I have a reason for it. This past year I was in panic mode about how do I make money, how do I build my brand, and how do I get clients. Although I did have some accomplishments, I stressed myself out WAY too much and it wasn’t a fun experience. I stayed in a lot and isolated myself while I allowed myself to think of the worst possible scenarios. It wasn’t a very FUN year.
So, yes I plan on launching my business, taking on tons of new clients, and finally earning an income doing what I love. However, I plan on having fun at the same time. I plan on making it a point to enjoy myself even while accomplish my life long goals. Because what’s the point of reaching those goals if I have to make myself miserable to do it?
20 Things I want to do in 2020:
- Officially launch my business
- Take on health coaching clients
- Finish at least one ebook
- Finish paperback book
- Host events
- Create a podcast
- Get better with finances
- Journal weekly
- Go to yoga regularly
- Have a Yes Man month
- Put out a YouTube favorites video every month
- Use Mel Robbins’ 5 Second Rule
- Make IIN binders from all my course material
- Finish 2020 booklist
- Get back into shape with the Apple Watch
- Wake up earlier
- Attend one event/group meetup/or coffee date each week
- Create a morning ritual
- Put laundry away each weekend
- Heal my gut health
What do I want to manifest in 2020?
- A total of 30 health coaching clients
- An email list of over 1,000 people
- A finished and printed book
- A 100th blog post party
- Financial abundance
- A healed gut and a full head of hair (my body is STILL recovery seven years later from going on birth control)
- A trip to Salem, Massachusetts in the fall and a trip to the New Mexcio Hot Air Balloon Festival
This year will be the best year ever because…
I will finally be living the life that I’ve been dreaming I would live for years. I will finally be able to cross those major bucket list items off of like become a business owner, host a podcast, and write a book. AND I will be helping people while I do it! I will be able to support myself while doing what makes me happy!
I will show myself compassion in 2020 by …
Identifying when I’m in a negative thought pattern and being hard on myself and hypercritical of myself. Just identifying when I’m in that state and recognizing that it’s not me and these things aren’t true will greatly help my emotional well being.
I will also show myself compassion in my weekly journaling session where I will share my wins from the week. This will help me get out of that negative, critical mindset and focus on the progress I’m making instead.
BONUS: My 2020 Book List
- 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Powerful Lessons in Personal Change, by Stephen R. Covey
- How to Win Friends & Influence People, by Dale Carnegie
- Think and Grow Rich, by Napoleon Hill
- Awaken the Giant Within: How to Take Immediate Control of Your Mental, Emotional, Physical and Financial Destiny, by Anthony Robbins
- The 5 Second Rule: Transform your Life, Work, and Confidence with Everyday Courage, by Mel Robbins
- 10% Happier: How I Tamed the Voice in My Head, Reduced Stress Without Losing my Edge, and Found Self-Help That Actually Works by Dan Harris
- The Highly Sensitive Person: How to Thrive When the World Overwhelms You by Elaine N. Aron
- Girl Wash Your Face: Stop Believing the Lies About Who You Are So You Can Become Who You Are Meant To Be by Rachel Hollis
- You Are the Placebo by Dr. Joe Dispenza
- You Are a Badass at Making Money: Master the Mindset of Wealth by Jen Sincero
- Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Won’t Stop Talking by Susan Cain
- The Four Hour Workweek by Timothy Ferries
- Unfuck Yourself: Get Out of Your Head and Into Your Life
- The Year of Yes by Shonda Rhimes
- 13 Things Mentally Strong People Do: Take Back Your Power, Embrace Change, Face Your Fears, and Train Your Brain for Happiness and Success by Amy Morrin
- Happiless Chokelist by Laura Juntunen
- Emotional Intelligence 2.0 by Travis Bradberry and Jean Greaves
- The Secret by Rhonda Byrne
- The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck: A Counterintuitive Approach to Living a Good Life by Mark Mason
- Super Attractor by Gabrielle Bernstein
Thanks for Coming to Lost Online!
Thanks for coming to Lost Online for my new little tradition of reflecting on the past year and setting my intentions for the new year. I hope you enjoyed this post. But above all, I hope that this inspired you to sit down and answer these journal prompts yourself.
I think that it’s extremely important to reflect on the past year and set your intentions for the future. These moments of transition into a new calendar year is the perfect time to start fresh and transform your life for the better.
As always, let me know what you think in the comments! Did this post inspire you to reflect on 2019? Did you do this same exercise yourself? Or did you come up with your own New Years Reflections? What are they? AND what are your New Year’s Resolutions?!?! I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW! (You guys know how obsessed with self-improvement I am!)
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Photo by Ray Reyes @rocketsciencephoto.